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nerdeology) wrote2016-01-19 11:57 am
nerdeology) wrote2016-01-19 11:57 am
IC Communication
Use this to get in contact with Mikleo outside of the community posts.
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"This is Mikleo. I'll get back to you when I can."
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"This is Mikleo. I'll get back to you when I can."
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[He's quiet when he responds, unsure, but more obviously concerned now, no longer pacing- running now, bounding through the hall of the quiet little library where he'd been hanging out when she called him.]
Sorey's been acting strangely for a while now, but to a lesser extent, he's done this before. Hiding things, putting up a brave front, trying to be strong and acting fine even when he's not...
[They'd fought back then, too, and while it had all worked out okay in the end, there'd still been a price to pay before the problem corrected itself. And Lailah had told them so often that conflict caused malevolence to form. They'd spent so much time focusing on the external conflict that they hadn't realized how deep the internal damage could be, too.]
Be true and honest with yourself. That's what she told him. If he's pretending for our sake... if he's lying to himself... maybe even he hasn't realized until now what's happening.
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[She takes a deep breath, and there's the sound of rustling and movement.]
I already mentioned it, but... I've been where Sorey is now before. If you start thinking it's your fault, you spiral down... You think you have to bear everything yourself, because you should be able to, because others think you can. When you can't live up to your own expectations, you start to think of yourself as a failure. The more you think that, the more you flounder, and nothing you can do by yourself can ever pull you out of it... You start thinking it would be better if you weren't there, for everyone else's sake. You can't see any other outcome.
... I don't know if it's the same thing for him as it was for me. But it sounds so far like it's similar. Expectations, fears, the inability to do it all himself like he wants... If he gets as deep as I was, I think it'll be worse than you can imagine.
[She hopes it's different. She's sure it's different- Sorey is someone who can do anything, right? Surely he won't fall down the same problem she did. Or at least, not for the same reason. Sorey wouldn't have trouble living up to the expectations of others, right? So, where is the problem?]
Go find him, but leave your communicator on like this. I'll run support from up here and help out. Is that okay?
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But... Sorey listens to him, when it's bad. Sometimes, anyway. When he's pushed into a corner, when he needs to accept help, a shove in the right direction from the right person will set him back on the correct path. He needs to be that now- and maybe Lailah would be better suited for it, as the Prime Lord, as someone who knows more about malevolence and Shepherds than any of them, but wishful thinking isn't going to magically bring her here. All he can do is remember her words, and do what she'd told them to do- speak from the heart. Be honest.
Get Sorey to do the same.]
...I... okay. Okay. I think I can track him... we're connected through the pact. If I concentrate, it should guide me back to him. Once I find him, I... I can...
[And here, he falters, because while there's already so much urgency, but he's never faced a situation this severe before. If Sorey's so close, if the malevolence is great enough that he recognizes a need to run- anything Mikleo says, if it's wrong, could send Sorey over the edge. It won't stop him from going anyway - nothing in the universe could, at this point - but it does make him pause, stumbling against the nearest wall, his voice hitched despite his attempt to remain steadfast.]
I-If this... goes badly... you'll need to call Allen. I won't be able to--
[He stops himself, hands clenching tightly, and forces himself to move again. He's scared shitless, and he knows what awaits him wherever Sorey is. There are two paths now, two destinations. If he can convince Sorey to come back... if he can prevent the worst from happening... they'll be fine. All of them will come out stronger.
If he can't--
--no. I have to. I can't allow anything else to happen. He'd never forgive himself if...]
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I will. But stay on the line with me, okay? I won't be able to do anything if I don't know what's going on.
But... Right now, if it's still the same, then... What he needs right now is just understanding. I was kind of a huge ass and fucked that up already, but... Understand him, sympathize with him, listen to his worries. Show you care. We both know you do, but that's hard to remember when you get in that deep.
... And that sort of thing means more when it comes from someone you love. I don't know you two's exact relationship, but whatever it is, you two love each other, right? You can get through it, if you do it together. Just believe in that.
[As brothers? Are they dating? She doesn't even know anymore. She's still defaulting to 'they're married', though.]
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[That had been his intent anyway, but to hear it spoken aloud is helpful, so he doesn't object to being told, even if it's a little obvious. Maybe he could stand to be more honest sometimes; Sorey always understood what he meant regardless of what he said - it's just how they were - but surely it would be more reassuring if his words reflected his thoughts, wouldn't it? The armatus wouldn't feel so necessary if that were the case. Instead of channeling his feelings through the connection, just. Use his perfectly functional mouth for more than just attitude.
He's... not always good at it, but with Sorey, when it matters, he'll do it. He just has to make sure he gets the words out before Sorey does anything rash like try to run away again.]
I need to contact the others first. Dezel and Zaveid- they're connected to Sorey, too- if something's happening to him, I have to tell them.
[He's going to try his damnedest to make this right. But. But.]
I'll... reconnect, though. You're right. Someone has to know.
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(There's a small guilty pang- She didn't know about these other two. If she's talking this much about being their friends, shouldn't she have known that more people were connected to Sorey? But she shoves that out of her head.)]
I understand. I'll be here. Just be sure you're back before you get planetside, okay? I'll be researching from the network up here if there's any obvious places without people he might go.
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[If he was feeling truly desperate and had no other alternatives, he could try to force an armatization from a distance- he'd go directly to Sorey's body wherever he is, assuming it worked. But he doesn't trust Sorey's reaction to that, and it feels wrong to do it on his end only- like Dezel with Rose, when he'd taken over her body.
Not to mention that would put him directly at the core of Sorey's domain, and as things stand right now...
...ugh, how did he miss this? Is he really that naive, or did his faith in Sorey just utterly blind him to what was happening? Is he malevolent already, too?
Don't overthink. Just focus. You can do this.]
...Nightingale... thank you.
[He hangs up - there's no time to waste - but he had to let it be known how important this is, how much she's helped. The rest is up to him.]