IC Communication

[nerdeology]

Use this to get in contact with Mikleo outside of the community posts.


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"This is Mikleo. I'll get back to you when I can."

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[monolike]

with dirtied hands
with shoeless feet
a girl, she creeps
she creeps, she creeps

she takes with her
their golden teeth
she creeps, she creeps, she creeps

wedding rings
medals and pins
swords and buttons
and medicine
she drags a bag
filled to the brim
and creeps, the child, she creeps

her fingers sore
poked red and black
the sun will set and she'll turn back

the spoils are vast
the field is deep
she goes
again
and creeps

9/15

[monolike]

Did I tell you that Lailah offered to reinstate the pact? She said she forgives me and whatever I do, she's with me.

She said that the day after...everything.

But she's always been like that, hasn't she?

[monolike]

I don't know what to do.

Every time I think about it, my brain just. Freezes up. Like when you're reading an inscription but the next part is missing or broken. Or like when you're trying to do a translation and it uses a character you've never seen before. Just. Interrupts everything.

[monolike]

...I don't know why I came in here and started talking about myself.

Maybe I'm expecting you to answer.

I don't know.

[monolike]

The Huntress is okay. Clay's helping me.

Everyone else involved is okay. They'll all be fine. I'll- I'll make sure they're fine.

[monolike]

Oh- and I have your circlet. I cleaned it up; it doesn't look like it was damaged. I'm keeping it safe.

...I won't let anything happen to it. I swear. I swear, I'll make sure everyone is safe, and I'll keep your treasure safe, Mikleo, I promise you. I swear on everything I have, I-

I-I won't let-

9/16

[monolike]

Lailah keeps coming by to see me to make sure I eat. A few other people have been asking me too, so. You don't have to worry about that. ...wherever you are.

[It's easier to think he just went to seraphim afterlife rather than he's just-]

[monolike]

...the water doesn't taste right.

I think the ship might be. Contaminating it or...or something.



I'll go check the filters again.

9/17

[monolike]

...you're a liar.

[monolike]

How could you say that I'd be okay? How could you just- just say that as you died, like you knew I'd be okay?

[monolike]

You always acted like you knew everything about me, and maybe you did, but this time you're wrong! You're wrong, Mikleo! I'm not okay! I'm never gonna be okay!

How could you tell me that?!

You don't know anything!



How am I supposed to be the Shepherd again?! How can't I be the Shepherd again? We had the same dream! We were supposed to achieve it together- why didn't you just stay away from me? Now I'm useless, and you're dead!

You- you're an idiot Mikleo!

2 hours later

[monolike]

You didn't deserve that.

Sorry, Mikleo.

I'll...

...I'll do my best.

9/18

[monolike]

The stuff you were working on looks great.

...you'd probably be mad that I looked before it was finished. Well, I couldn't help it. I got ahead of myself. Don't worry, I didn't take any of the pins out.

[monolike]

Okay maybe I should take the pins out, because I tried it on and I got stabbed a little.

[monolike]

It's stupid that I don't want to, right? It's not like- like you're going to finish it. And it's probably healing or something, to acknowledge that.

I just...can't.

[monolike]

You'd be so annoyed with me right now. I can almost hear your voice. Sorey, you're being ridiculous, just take out the pins. Or I could just not even try it on at all, but you were working so hard on it...I don't want to just...I don't want that to go to waste.

[monolike]

...so! What's the verdict, Mikleo? Take them out and wear it, or leave them in and just keep it hanging around? You liked things just for aesthetic reasons sometimes. Always had these little displays around your house if we found something cool, never let me touch the delicate stuff...

[monolike]

But...

...you made this for me. Not for you.

30 min later

[monolike]

I hope you don't mind, Mikleo. I took the pins out.

It looks great on me.

9/19 - early morning

[monolike]

[The message starts with a quiet punctuated only by fragile, trembling breaths.

Then, a sharp inhale before Sorey begins to cry.

Twice he tries to start a sentence with a stutter of Mikleo's name before he's forced to give up, sobs keening and broken.

Eventually he calms enough to speak, though his voice is wet.] Sorry- I'm s- sorry. There's a little girl staying with me, and I- it was dark and all I saw was a sh-shape in the bed and I- gods- I thought it was you, Mikleo, I don't know why but I thought it was y- [He breaks off again, too overcome to do anything but weep.

The message ends.]

9/20

[monolike]

Hey, Mikleo.

What do you think people like Lailah and Zaveid and Edna see when they look at people like us?

[monolike]

...Lailah got mad at me.

I didn't realize how much I needed her to remind me not to be consumed by the Shepherd's duty. She was always saying it, remember? She must've known I needed to hear it over and over. And then I didn't, and I failed to remind myself, and was consumed by it again. By the lack of that responsibility.

I think that's why this happened. I felt like I was failing, and...I felt like I was going to lose all of you. Not as friends, but as...as something even more. We're all more than friends at this point.

[monolike]

Anyway, so I told Lailah that I should do as much with my short life as possible, and she got mad. But, y'know, in a Lailah way.

And Dezel basically told me to suck it up, and Zaveid wouldn't even let me properly apologize. Maybe they're tired of me crying. Lord knows I am, my face can't take much more of this.

9/21

[monolike]

I've been staring at these messages you left for days.

...if I'm being honest, which evidence shows I should be, I'm scared to listen to them. To hear your voice. I'm already half-expecting you to walk through the door or just- appear like you've come out of me. I don't know how many times I've just sat still for hours and listened for your voice in my head. Like I'm just waiting for you to wake up.

If I listen to these, I- I might let myself be fooled. I can't let that happen.

9/22 - 3 am

[monolike]

...they did look just like prickleboars.